I have to fix this, me and only me (cont.)

continued from post https://throughthepuzzle.com/2012/05/06/i-have-to-fix-this-me-and-only-me/

(Religious Post Follows)

As I said in my earlier post.  I was teetering on the brink….. of what?  Who knows, but it was not going to be pretty.

Some people have tons of friends.  I on the other hand could never be described as Ms popularity.  I can always find people to chat with, but I do not make many real friendships.  You know…. the ones with substance.  Over the years I have been blessed with a few wonderful people in my life though.

My very good friends (the ones I truly value) are the people who can tell me when I am not thinking straight.  When I am making mistakes.  They are the ones who care enough to give me a dose of reality when I seriously need it.  (Even if I don’t want it).  Here’s hoping you all have friends like that.

Well, I was talking to one of my best friend during this time and I will never forget the impact of her words.  I think she saved my life.

In a nutshell she said, “Who do you think you are anyway?”

“What makes you think you have the power to fix anything?”

“Don’t you think that’s just a little arrogant?”

She was so right.  I had lost sight of the truth.  I can not control the future. I can not fix my child. I do not hold the key to life or health or anything else in the palm of my hand.  I can not cure.  And my child’s future was written long before any of us even existed.  That thought was so comforting.  The extreme pressure that I was feeling was instantly gone. This is God’s plan.  It is divine decree.  We give the supplements, but God cures.

But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thingand it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not” [Qur’an 2:216]

Indeed Autism has been one of the best things that could have happened to our family.  I say that knowing full well how much I hate it.  But God has granted us healing and we have found the way out.  Every member in my family has benefited, all six of my children, even my husband (who is also chelating).  And in this process, I have been blessed with the ability to help families all over the globe.  I pass on this information, just as it was passed on to me, and there is hope for the future of our children, by the will of God.  Al Hamdulillah!